A Lovely Puzzle: February 2012

OooK so, people making out in front of a "Crumbs".... The Empire State Building is glowing red... young chick carrying a gargantuan white fluffy teddy bear... homeless guy throwing rose petals... lush bearded gentleman playing "Careless Whisper" on his sax... OOOWEEEE heart candy! Don't worry everyone, I'm not describing a rave. IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!

New York is a giant love parade today, practically buzzing with romance. It's like someone decided that the song of the day would be "Can You Feel The Love Tonight " and everyone is waltzing to the beat of it. Ok, maybe not everyone... The lady on the train today who told this guy "GETCHO UGLY F*CKING BALLOONS OUTA MUH FACE!"... yeah, she probably wasn't that into Valentine's day. But hey, that's ok because most of the people I observed today to were.

February 14th is always and interesting topic to discuss. People either love it or they don't. They either celebrate it or repel it. I myself think it's a cute holiday. While I agree that you should show your loved ones how you feel about them 365 days of the year, it's hard for me to argue against a lovey, gooey, mushy day dedicated to romance. There's something so childlike and adorable about it. It's a day to amplify your ridiculous romantic notions. The only thing about Valentine's Day that bugs the top notch fool out of me is that it reminds me that I am seriously, unquestionably, absolutely (dum, dum, DUM) S-I-N-G-L-E.

Being single in New York is no episode of "Sex and the City" my friends. Mr. Big isn't bumping into me and delighting me with afternoon flirts. Aiden isn't charming me into spending the weekend in his country cabin. This city has over 8,000,000 people in it and I... just happen to be one of it's lone wolves. I'm not bitter or crying about it. I sing "All the single ladies" with the other unattached felines while out dancing. It's just hard to "Put your hands up Oh Oh Oh" when you're alone on Valentine's Day.

BOOM

Connecting with someone here has it's challenges. People move quickly around here with little time, only concerned with the destination. Sometimes you forget to slow down the journey and just say... hi. Don't get me wrong, I've met a few lads out and about. Let's see, there was the "physically attractive but mentally a super jerk" guy. Oh yeah... and the "mentally stimulating and cute but I have a girlfriend" guy. Ooo and here's the cake topper: I seem to attract the "Return Of The Mac" type guys. For those of you who are thinking "Hey Makia, what's a "Return Of The Mac" type?", I would be oh so happy to enlighten you.

Return Of The Mac Guy

Usually starts out with "Ehh Gurl" or "PssT!"
Probably old enough to be your dad but missed the adult train
Kind of reminds you of a 70's pimp
Blast 90's R. Kelly tunes while slowing down vehicle to "holla" at you when you are walking home.
Has gold somewhere... on his chain, on his cane, in his teeth

Basically.

Let's just say that I'm not really into that type. Walking around today, it was hard to see all the love and not have someone to share it with. Who doesn't want to hold hands around Central Park with a wonderful "insert sex here"? People like me, the romantics, the foolishly amazed, the daydreamers... we wait for those moments. We consider sharing your life with someone a beautiful accomplishment and we yearn to begin that life. And you know what, that's ok with me. I enjoy being that person. One day I will be part of a we on Valentine's Day and I think that will be pretty awesome. But for now...I'm a me. If living here has taught me anything, it's definitely taught me that living in a selfish faze for a while is A ok. I get to learn what I want, enrich my life open my heart to the possibility of being enthralled. Yes, it sounds a bit "self help book" esk but, it's too true. The one or him or the person for me... I don't think it's my time to be swept away just yet. Now this isn't an anti relationship post for all you lovers out there. Hopefully one day I will meet someone and join that "googly eyed, over the moon, can't breathe, can't stop smiling, love to argue because I know we will make up" cult. And when I do, you can say I told you so :).

When I woke up today, I decided to go roaming through the city today by myself. I had a yummy lunch and also saw "The Artist" at the Paris Theater on 5th Ave. Going to the Paris Theater is like entering a time machine. The actual theater is so beautiful. I sat in the Balcony even though there were only a few people around. They played classical music for a bit and then the big velvet curtains parted and the show began. Loved every second of it.

I left my Parisian time machine and went Central Park to read and enjoy a warm cider. After a while I realized that I had be out alone all day without my phone, without anyone beside me. It was kinda nice.

Valentine's Day is also an excuse for delicious treats. After my moi date day, I decided to go home and make something that would make weight watchers angry. I made chocolate oatmeal no bake cookies (lovingly named Dunga Doo Balls) and Strawberry Love Hot Chocolate. Did I just hear a collective mmmmmmm? Ohh boy was it good. I may have to work out like a crazy person for the rest of the week but... yeah, I do believe it was worth it.

Strawberry Love Hot Chocolate

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Dunga Doo Balls

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Add in a little "Gilmore Girls" and I have to say it's been a wonderful day. I didn't have to wear black and curse love to enjoy it. It was nice to just... be. "Sex and the City" had it right with with the soulmates thing. I have soulmates. People in my life that I said "I love you" to today and meant each word. Honestly I have more Valentines than I can count on both my hands. Alone? Please... not even close. Until next time kids.... the lone wolf says goodnight.

Pudge Watch 2012

Things are going alot better since my last post. The crazy beast is gone and Cheer Bear has returned.. I've been going to the gym and eating better. I've even got a few friends helping me out in the process. Its crazy how good you feel after accomplishing something like a simple 1 minute jog. "I did it!" that's what's going through my head. And even if the crazy beast pops through a couple of times, I know from experience I can beat it :).

5 Fictional Valentines 2012

1). Mr Darcy

Intelligent, gorgeous, hard on the outside, but soft and compassionate on the inside.

Quote: "In vain have I struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you."

2). Murphy Muldoon from "Born In Shame" by Nora Roberts.

Sorry. I'm reading this right now and I am crushing on this Irish, awesome guy.

3). Prince Eric

I blame my overly romantic outlook about love on Disney movies. I blame my crush on dark haired blue eyed men on Prince Eric.